Bitterness

Recently, with much pain I came to a big super huge realization.

The realization about the word “moving on”.

Now, this word might mean something different to you.  Moving on doesn’t have to be a b a d thing.

Honestly, it just depends on “who” is doing the moving on.

In my opinion moving on is only cool if both parties are in agreement, to move on.

Now if you have a situation where only one of you is wanting to “move on”well then, enter sadness (here).

So here we are moving on.

Whether I wanted to or not.
Yes I know I have said I was moving on multi times before. However, this time it is for real.

Change is good.

Things happen for a reason.

All good things eventually come to an end.

I firmly believe in these things.

I have a male friend at work,that has been aware of all that was going on. In his opinon, he said that I didn’t really care or love this “guy” as much as I think I did. WTF? 

 I disagree.

 What kind of friend tells you that?

 Well, I’ll tell you. An honest one.

My friend says, that I was only in it for the chase.  I was only enjoying it because It felt like I was the one in control. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

Could this be true? I am a super huge control freak.

I mean really, wasn’t I just using him as much as he was using me?  So I shouldn’t be all that sad to see it end. Right? What ev er.

I still think of him frequently.  The whole situation certainly impacted my life in a positive way. I will never forget him.

Was I ready to move on?

I don’t know. 

 Did I have a choice? Um, No. 

 Will it all be ok?  Eventually.Everything happens for a reason. You just don't realize till later, that the change is a good thing.

I'm not sure who I am trying to convince, me or you?

All good things eventually come to an end.