Who am I? Really

I am currently in a confused state of mind.
Ok, So I am always in a fucking confused state. Whatever!

 I don’t know what I want or where I want to go.

With  a n y t h i n g.

This summer was a whirl wind of 
 f u n, h a p p y, and a m a z i n g times.

I enjoyed the ride.  and what a ride it was.

Now I have all these mixed feelings.

About  e v e r y t h i n g.

My soccerboy is growing up, and is always gone.

Which is to be expected.

My tattoo girl has moved out and living her own life,

Which is also to be expected.

I am left feeling lost and confused.

About  e v e r y t h i n g.

I know I sound like a freakin broken record.

I have no one really that I have to take care of anymore, so to speak .  

Everyone is self-suffient.
Thats a good thing right?

Which leaves me with all kinds of time.

T I M E.

So……………….Where does that leave me?

Who am I ? Now

What do I want to do with my life?

Everytime I say that it makes me think of that song by Twisted Sister. “What do you want to do with your life.”

Funny huh.

I know I have a million options. I just have to choose one and run with it.

I’m just troubled right now, about which option to choose.

You know, I always share with YOU.

All the things that are going on in my life.

You all give me some awesome feed back, advice, and opinions.

 I love that you all want to help me.
You are amazing people.

I just feel like my life is currently in limbo.

Of what? I don’t freakin know.

Like I need to make a decision right now on what path to take next.

Why is it, I feel like its something I have to do NOW?
Today?

I am not depressed. I'm just struggling.

Why do I feel the pressure of making a decision?
 This is not like me. I am not a indicisive type of person.

This is why this sudden state has me a bit concerned.

I need to quit thinking

and

just do IT.